an excellent example of me being Back On My Bullshit: I was absentmindedly singing Christmas songs to myself while walking Hazy, as you do if you’re me, and it happened to be “O Come O Come Emmanuel” so the word “rejoice” was in there a lot, which reminded me of the scene in @lizardbeths’ fic Ragdoll where that particular word gives Loki a Thanos-era flashback, and anyway now I kind of want to write a Christmas fic where Loki goes with Steve and maybe a couple other Avengers to a Christmas Eve service out of curiosity and gets badly triggered because that specific word keeps popping up in the songs and sermon

and, I mean, I did kind of want to do a seasonal fic, especially since I actually did a New Year fic the last couple years, and this would arguably qualify

the problems with this, of course, are

1. what fucking context would I set this in, like, post-IW fix-it or pre-IW AU or what, I don’t know what I like better or what makes more sense and the context would change like…everything
2. it’s…ha ha shit less than two weeks until Christmas, and I have at least 10 reports to edit at work, a couple Etsy orders to finish and send very soon, and other packages to send, and other things I still need to list on Etsy, and Tumblr backups to deal with, and computer shopping to do very soon, and more cleaning to do, and a different fic I’d really like to finish for a Yuletide treat, and tons of gifts to sort and wrap, many other fics to write that people might actually be interested in, and we still haven’t set up the tree, and knowing myself it is not super realistic to think I could write a complete fic by Christmas even if I didn’t have…everything else