Tag: ugh

ohhhh my god I just made the mistake of looking at my DW profile page, which was imported straight from LJ like seven or eight years ago (and even then, a lot of it probably hadn’t been updated in a few years), and it’s…it’s so fucking bad. like it’s embarrassingly melodramatic and pretentious but also

  • a link to download Firefox
  • my fucking Gaia Online avatar
  • a little banner for a wallpaper site I liked
  • a string of nonsense “Geek Code” (link now defunct) and a little “I am a total geek” banner
  • mention of being a “gammar nazi”
  • identifying as a conservative Christian
  • self-righteously proclaiming that I hate ship wars and don’t believe in slash (what the actual fuck, past me)

like on the one hand I guess it’s not awful to have such a stark reminder of how much I’ve changed, and in general I’m trying to have compassion for my previous self who said and believed shitty things because she was basically indoctrinated as a kid, didn’t really know better at that point, and was only just starting a gradual journey toward less awful beliefs, but…fucking yikes. and of course it wasn’t really an issue when I wasn’t using it, but now that a lot of people are migrating to DW, I need to change it and also probably see what kind of awful garbage ended up in my entries when I originally imported from LJ and then decide whether it’s bad enough that I want to trash the whole thing and start over (except I’d still like to keep the username) or if I can delete/lock all my old entries

or, I suppose, if I actually want the old garbage there as a record, and to a certain extent I do because that was also me, once, and it’s not such a bad thing to remember who I used to be and recognize I’m an example of the fact that people can change for the better, but…just…

fucking yikes

things I need to do today, for sure:

  • go vote
  • be home at 5:30 so I can call in to AK Democrats poll-watcher training (or, I suppose, walk next door if I’m phonebanking)
  • leave a comment on this proposed rule change that would allow the government to detain minors way longer, because the deadline is Nov. 6

other things I can/should do but I definitely can’t do all of them, or at least not a massive amount of both, which means I need to pick, which means decision crisis, which means less time actually DOING either of these but UGH STILL CAN’T DECIDE:

  • more phonebanking at AK Democrats office (pros: there will probably be free food, it’s for multiple races, it’s local so it’s something affects me personally and I might be able to give actual advice, it’s local so there aren’t any time-zone issues, there won’t be a damn TV to drown out, and I’ll be basically next door anyway because of voting. cons: PHONE. also fewer bathrooms, fewer tea options, and I’ll have to ignore a bunch of other people also phonebanking, which I can’t drown out with…anything, really.)
  • more texting for out-of-state races (pros: much more efficient, doesn’t require verbal interaction, I can pick from a lot of different races to focus on especially important or tight ones, it’s at home, I can listen to my own music to drown out distractions, there’s a natural cut-off time because it’ll be in a different time zone. cons: I can pick from a lot of different races and that means MORE DECISIONS TO MAKE, higher likelihood of distractions, it’s not local so I won’t have answers to questions unless they’ve specifically been provided to me, the texting interface can be confusing, text conversations are less intimidating BUT people are more likely to be assholes, time-zone differences mean I can’t do it as long) 

things I should also do and might be able to squeeze in regardless of actual decisions:

  • use VoteWithMe and OutVote to remind people I actually know to vote, which is actually more awkward because in many cases these are Facebook contacts I never talk to so this is kind of the civic-duty equivalent of suddenly going “hi, I’m pretending we’re actually friends, please like the page for my new direct-order business and also buy something from me!!!” but also it’s potentially important so I should do it anyway
  • post more relevant articles on Facebook that will probably be ignored again but there’s always a chance one of my conservative-or-undecided family members or acquaintances will see it and fucking think for once, plus I think it’s valuable to like…have clear records of my positions
  • leave a voicemail for Don Young scolding him about how gross and irresponsible it is that his newest campaign ad invokes the anti-Semitic right-wing conspiracy theories about George Soros that LITERALLY JUST GOT THE GUY TARGETED WITH A MAIL BOMB AND PROBABLY ALSO CONTRIBUTED TO THE TREE OF LIFE SYNAGOGUE SHOOTING, HOLY SHIT WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

HELP

iamanartichoke:

cactuscat123:

carlohasweirdthoughts:

cactuscat123:

So this was some of the test footage that was shown to Marvel executives early in the Infinity War production process.

In this version it seems as though Thanos made the decision to kill Loki from the start instead of killing him simply because he tried to stab him (yeah remember that stupid plan?) I don’t know if I would’ve preferred something like this for Loki’s death (I’d rather him be alive) but I thought it was interesting ¯_(ツ)_/¯

But in conclusion Thanos is a stupid purple grape scrotum monster who needs to be destroyed thanks for listening to my TED Talk.

Why does this look like the beginning of Nike Commercial and after this there will be a montage of Thanos working out?

This reblog, my gosh I’m crying 😂😂😂 I can’t un-see this now

^^ The montage would have Eye of the Tiger playing. 

But in all seriousness, I’d really like to see the full conversation this is from (bc this isn’t really something you just say kind of randomly) and I will say that if we had gotten an actual conversation and some kind of altercation not involving knives, I might be having an easier time with Loki’s death. At least it would make more sense. 

mmmm not sure if I liiiiike this, between the dialogue and the fact that he’s sitting down saying this very calmly, it sounds…potentially more like Loki was at least cooperating with Thanos a lot longer than was previously implied, and/or Loki knew about his impending death in advance and Thanos might have actually allowed him to fake it :/

korrasera:

nonbinarypastels:

[Image Description: Screenshots of a series of tweets by a user named @valeriehalla that read

  • ok: i’m scared to exist online right now, even in what we should be able to consider safe spaces for queer folks
  • i’m scared because we are all watching continually as more and more of us are violently picked off and destroyed
  • by other queer folks, and by people who claim to be sympathetic to us, utilizing the same rhetoric that should be helping and empowering us
  • the word “discourse”, at this point, is only ever used sarcastically and with a kind of quiet dread by my friends
  • we joke about being problematic, but me, my peers and maybe you too, live in a state of constant low anxiety
  • over the fact that we don’t get second chances to make mistakes. if you’re a queer person of any kind of visibility, it’s one and done
  • the well of patience and compassion runs deep for our cis/straight allies, and we reserve NOTHING for ourselves
  • this is assuming you even make a mistake. we target each other for complete bullshit just as often
  • weeks ago i was chased off twitter for using the word “queer”, before that i was getting death threats over fabricated purity politics
  • friends of mine have been targeted with callout posts over things they didn’t do or for weird fandom drama with zero material impact
  • i’m not trying to absolve any of us of guilt. we’ve all done and will do wrong things, we’ll hurt each other, again and again
  • it’s easy, because we’re all a little bit fucked up over here. we’re carrying wounds we’re weird, we’re not always presentable
  • but that’s exactly why we need patience and compassion for each other more than anything else
  • because those wounds make it so easy for us to destroy eachother, and some of y’all may be tempted
  • it’s easier. when it’s some 20-something queer artist struggling to meet half the poverty line, it’s easy to run them off for hurting you
  • i GET why it’s tempting for some folks, because this is power that you can exert, a situation you can change
  • when we’re all so tired and so used to being powerless
  • but please understand that the folks you’re targeting may not come back from it. they may not ever come back. it’s happened, it will happen
  • when you mark someone as unsaveable and irredeemable in the only space they have to exist in, they can’t exist anymore

End of tweets.]

Just to make something about this crystal clear, and this is something that I think many people will recognize about these tweets, the situations that valeriehalla is describing aren’t just the result of people punishing honest mistakes. Some of these things are straight up authoritarian bullshit perpetrated by people who are trying to create power structures in the LGBTQ+ community.

This is what it means to be a TERF, a transmedicalist/truscum, or an ace exclusionist. This is the environment they’re trying to build, one where other people in the LGBTQ+ community have to live with fear and anxiety of the kind of authoritarian bullying that these people try to create.

It’s really important to push back on this stuff anytime we see it, because authoritarians actively work to spread their malfeasant ideology. They lie and manipulate in order to spread their message because they honestly believe that anything, no matter how immoral, is justified in pursuit of their core goals. And their core goals always involve hurting us, all of us. They only see three types of people; those that agree with them and are allies, those that don’t agree with them and are enemies, and those people who they hate and will only ever attack.

We fight them by not letting them get away with it. We fight them by educating people about their tactics and their evil. We fight them by protecting those of us who are young enough or immature enough to still be vulnerable to their recruitment tactics. And we win by never giving them an inch, ever.

In a fight where one side believes only in the oppression and eventual destruction of the other, there’s no middle ground to be found, they are wholly wrong in their beliefs and they’re willing to hurt people in service to them.

annieelainey:

The use of plastic straws by disabled people became a moral detriment suitable for public shaming before lack of accessibility became a moral detriment suitable for public shaming.

My disabled YouTuber friend now gets harassed when she uses a plastic bending straw (an accessibility tool, something she NEEDS in order to drink, no alternative currently works) in her videos.

Reminder right here: no matter how someone looks, their disability will not always be apparent to you.

But when my disabled friend is denied emergency evacuation plans out of a building because the elevators get shut off and she uses a wheelchair, does the building owner get shamed or harassed? No.

Those are the power dynamics at play here.

Imagine if ableds cared about accessibility as much as they care about banning plastic straws.

Georgia cancels registration of more than 591,500 voters

theactualcluegirl:

gryphye:

giandujakiss:

CHECK YOUR REGISTRATION STATUS.  You can usually do it at the website of your local secretary of state, or at Vote.org.

Anyone who follows me from Georgia?  If not, pass it on.

sigh..  Actually, let me just add, THIS BULLSHIT RIGHT HERE, THIS IS WHY YOUR VOTE MATTERS.  You think they’d be so hot to take away your rights if it didn’t?

If you can register to vote by mail DO SO!!! Not only does it give you more time to research your ballot options, it provides a paper trail, so you can PROVE how you voted, no matter how the Russian hackers massage the electronic numbers.

Georgia cancels registration of more than 591,500 voters