I love how the search function on this site is absolute garbage. I can look up a post word for word and I will NEVER find it
Pro tip:
Wanna find a post?
Write out what you remember into a Google search.
After you write that out, end with site:tumblr.com
Google will search for your text on just tumblr
In my experience, it’s way more effective than searching through Tumblr
(you can use site:SITENAME.com to search any site btws)
This usually works but for some reason a lot of posts get indexed on google from a person’s URL based on the posts that were recently reblogged on page 1, meaning that this is only a tiny bit more reliable.
I HAVE a solution to this, you have to write down site:tumblr.com/post “ “
and then write a direct quote (could be a fraction of a sentence) into the quotations, I’ve been doing this for years, and it’s so useful, it works like 99% of the time
(the more popular a post is the more likely you’ll find it)
you’re a genius holy shit
sometimes I think about how there must be people who aren’t tired all the time and I’m just like… wild. what does that even feel like
this morning I completely forgot to take EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY MEDS and didn’t realize until I got to work, in case anyone wondered how I’m doing at the whole “functional adult” thing
(it’s fine, I have extras for two of the three prescriptions and the most important supplement but like, yikes self, does having a half-dead computer really throw off your routine that badly?)
well, in thinking about this more I realized that I’ve never used magical exhaustion as…the source of the whump, I guess you could say; it’s mostly been kind of a side effect of Other Bad Shit, partly because magical exhaustion (and internal resource depletion in general, I guess) is an easy way to handwave beating up somebody who’s canonically really durable. but, hmm, fics of mine where that’s a bigger part of the premise…
speed the collapse (scatter what remains) – not so much magical exhaustion as magical…autoimmune disorder? basically, the Other fucked with his magic and it eventually broke after he reached Earth, turning on Loki and making him really, really sick. trying to use it just makes things worse.
Avengers Academy: Friendship Is Magic – obviously this is Avengers Academy Loki but I inevitably write him as strongly influenced by my understanding of MCU Loki, and this fic is whump based on somebody trying to cut off his magic. (if you’re not familiar with Avengers Academy, you can pretty much just think of it as an AU where most of the major characters are much younger and in school together.)
winter in our bones – Loki falls from the Bifrost to Earth and gets snapped up by HYDRA when he’s still half-dead from the fall (also, in this AU, Steve is the Winter Soldier). this one definitely goes in the “magical depletion as a handwave so I can beat him up” category.
all turn to fire – Infinity War speculation based entirely on trailers. Loki exhausts himself softening the Statesman’scrash landing and doesn’t have much left to fight Thanos, which is why he resorts to bargaining away the Tesseract.
clearly, I need to write something more specifically about magical exhaustion, because that’s a fun variety of Loki whump that I’ve only sort of used.
me, a rational adult who understands how math works: if I buy PC components one or two at a time instead of all at once, ultimately it won’t cost as much
I…. just noticed that Thanos broke Loki’s left arm in Avengers: Infinity War.
I’m going to legit end Thanos, friends. Brb.
I definitely noticed that he twists Loki’s left arm to make him drop the knife, but is there something confirming he actually broke it? not that I think he wouldn’t, I’m just wondering if there were details I missed (I actually have watched that scene several times, first to get things right for fic and then because, uh, it’s good whump if I stop before Thanos actually breaks his neck and pretend that part never happened)
man, having a non-functioning computer sure puts a cramp in your ability to do like…anything
I mean, I did some stuff this weekend, I found a computer for my mom and a video card for myself, and I wrote and mailed 15 letters to Georgia voters, but I was also planning to do a bunch of other things, like listing some new stuff on Etsy and TYPING UP MY OLD NOTEBOOK
but instead I spent a bunch of time troubleshooting and, so far, getting almost nowhere, and now I have two Etsy orders I should really mail within a week or two, which coincidentally happens to be the last few days of November and obviously I have not posted a fic for the month. which is probably a dumb thing to stress about! but there’s all this stuff I theoretically want to write until I actually sit down to do it (mostly excuses for more Loki whump, tbh), and then there are several fics that I think should be fairly easy to finish except I don’t have everything in one place so I don’t actually know what still needs to happen and also I’m probably being overly optimistic about how long it might take.
but like. there are so many things on my WIP list that should be fairly short! except then I think about them in slightly more detail and either what I have is a mess requiring a shitload of editing/stitching, or I need to write setup that always ends up being more complicated than it should, or two characters need to have An Important Conversation that also takes longer to write than it should, or some combination of the above. such as
the extra fic for Maximoff Fic Exchange, a post-IW thing where Loki and Wanda bond a little over similar trauma
the one where they both survive but then Thor gets dusted
kind of similar, from a post by @theotherodinson before Ragnarok even came out, where Loki ends up on Sakaar with amnesia and is given to Thor as a prize
more chapters in “going down to nowhere” because it’s LITERALLY ALREADY WRITTEN but it needs…so much editing. so, so much editing.
Loki, before and during Ragnarok, trying to deal with his fear of falling (well, I haven’t written much of that but it should be fairly short and simple, for anyone else)
virtually plotless post-Ragnarok Loki whump that should’ve been finished aaaaages ago but I kind of…got stuck on plot
I had at least one Whumptober idea I wanted to do and you would think I could make that short but my brain instantly has to make it more complicated
why do I always manage to make things difficult, and also why do I write so slow, “I will kiss you till your breath is found” was about 7,000 words and I feel like writing it took me f o r e v e r
I’m tempted to ask for short prompts in hopes I’ll get something that I actually manage to do in a reasonable length but, well, the list above probably shows that I’m bad about that
would also take audience recommendations for which thing off this list I should focus on
I guess I should publicly whine in slight detail about my WIPs more often, because after writing this I ended up thinking about some of these more today and now 1) I’m pretty sure I know how to finish one short fic off this list and I can do it fairly easily, and 2) I have another (…short?) idea for Loki whump
number of signs some dumbass had to ignore before throwing their messy trash in the (covered and very clearly marked) recycling bin:
I generally headcanon Loki as someone who has a very good and very sharp memory – maybe not exactly photographic, but he tends to remember things well and for a long time. (it’s part of what makes him so good at holding grudges.)
on the other hand, Loki also tends to be someone who focuses very much on the negative of things – for whom the bad sticks harder and much longer than the good. I’ve had Thor think multiple times in different fics about wishing Loki’s memory was a little less precise – and that’s usually in reference to the way Loki absorbs the things Thor says, the precise words he uses, and holds onto them. as someone who is – if not careless at least often less than careful with his language, and speaks from emotion sometimes without thinking of implication, that has consequences for the way Loki thinks about how Thor sees him.
so things like “imagined slights” and “you had her tricks, but I had her trust” and “know your place” – for Thor, they’re things he said once, spoke in anger or frustration or without thinking, or things he’s changed his mind about later, but for Loki they often become immutable truths.
in a lot of ways, Loki doesn’t think of anything as being “idle words.” even lies have meaning. and when it’s someone like Thor speaking, or Odin (“your birthright was to die”), who loom so large in Loki’s life and whose opinions are so important – that goes even more so. and post-facto it is very hard to dislodge that language or replace it.
I'm a defeatist but I don't have to be 